I know I rarely post these days, but for anyone who is still out there Gabbi is 13 years old now! This is a positive story. This is a blog with a happy ending. I am a 13 year survivor and working as a nurse. I am engaged to a wonderful man, also a nurse and have a wonderful large combined family. If you’re out there searching for help, feel free to reply or send a message. It CAN be done! Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. She got her hair colored blue this year. Her personality is coming out more and more. This pic her blonde is coming back in 😆

Remembering Nova

Today marks the 1 year anniversary of the birth and passing of my first grandchild. It has been a difficult year for all of us. She will always be my granddaughter. I watched her come into this world knowing we would only have her for a short time. I saw her move her little legs and move her mouth. It was hard losing my grandchild but seeing my daughter go through this kind of pain is indescribable. Lexi loved this little girl with as much love in her heart as any mom could love their child. I saw that love in her eyes.

It was a difficult pregnancy. Everything seemed so perfect other Lexi being so sick. There were signs that something could be wrong but everything constantly checked out fine. After many trips to the ER and a high risk sonogram everything still seemed ok. Then the day came she went in for a sonogram and she had no fluid left. It was gone and we just didn’t know why. Lexi was admitted and she was going to wait and we thought maybe they can make this work. Lexi got a bad infection. So now I am worried about my daughter and my grandchild. Lexi spiked a fever and her heart rate was high. The lack of fluid created an infection. The baby was coming. I can never possibly express how difficult that realization was. 23 weeks along. Almost 24. And our Nova was making her entrance.

We were told that she had no chance of not being born without a serious defect or disability. Lexi made the most difficult decision of her life. She allowed Nova to live what small time she had peacefully in her mothers arms. That moment was the most intense I have experienced. The doctors and nurses had a difficult time keeping themselves together. When Lexi held Nova in her arms the doctor moved his chair across the room and turned around staring at the wall as he cried. That’s a moment I’ll never forget. It made ME cry because I knew they cared. Every nurse and doctor involved felt the pain. Nova mattered to them. Lexi was able to keep Nova with her in her room for several days with the help of a cooling cot. This was such a blessing because Lexi got to say goodbye in her own time. We kissed her goodbye and we had our funeral for our little girl. She holds a special place in our heart and always will.

We love you Nova Lynn. Always and forever in our hearts 3/20/2018.

Updates on Zoey

Zoey is still getting her chemo but doing very well. She finally lost all of her hair but has the softest, cutest little head. She doesn't seem to mind one bit! Her whole family made the drive from Oklahoma to Illinois this past week to see family. She hadn't made any trips in awhile and we all missed them SO much. She did great. I served up a big pot of chilli for everyone and it was a hit with Zoey too. Her appetite has been decreased but it seems chili is one of those things you can entice her with.


My sister Vanessa has had a lot of stress including hitting a deer on the way to our mother's house from my house. When it rains it pours it seems. They are all ok though and it was a rental so they got it switched out and were on their way again. They couldn't stay long because Zoey needed to get her inpatient chemo. She has a lot of energy and she and little sister Althea love playing with my dogs Punzie and Sammy.


Oscar and Vanessa still need a lot of help getting to and from Zoey's treatments. We have the gofundme account which I will link here. Please donate even $1.00 if you can. We are thankful for anything. It helps with gas and food on her weekly chemo days.

https://www.gofundme.com/4zddj9-help-for-zoey

Zoey is handling her chemo very well! She's spent this week in the hospital but will get to come home tomorrow and then come back for weekly treatments. She has oral chemo she will be taking as well. Please keep her in your prayers as she is at a high risk for infection during this induction phase of chemo. Also, there will be a lot of expenses with gas back and forth. We appreciate all of the donations. They will surely help! I still want to reach our goal of$5000 which is really a meager amount considering all that she's going through. There will be 2 1/2 years of treatments. This is gonna be a long fight so add her name to your prayer chains and please keep her there. Thank you all!!

https://www.gofundme.com/4zddj9-help-for-zoey

Cancer Doesn't Care

My niece was diagnosed with Leukemia this week. She is 4 years old and her name is Zoey. This blog has always been about my own battle with lymphoma while pregnant. Mine and Gabbi's story. I am 9 years in remission and Gabbi is 9. We are doing great. So now, I'm dedicating my stories and updates to Zoey's Fight.This baby turns 5 tomorrow. She just had her first chemo, blood transfusions and platelets transfused. This is the sweetest little girl, the daughter of my sister Vanessa. Zoey's dad is Oscar. He's the most kind, happy, goofy, fun loving person you ever met. Vanessa loves unconditionally and gives so much of her heart to everyone. I will introduce you to them here. Follow Zoey's story here on my blog. Her fight has just started with Acute Lymphoblastic leukemia. Find it in your heart to consider a donation at their GoFundMe account.

Help For Zoey, CLICK HERE.