I have to say the fear I felt when my follow ups came along is getting smaller. I think I have the greatest Oncologist though who DOES help. His comforting words are always awesome because I feel tons better after seeing him. My follow up is August 7th. It's really not too far away. I had the CT scan last time. Maybe it's that. I think because it was still clear, more than one year later I feel more peace about it all. You never think truly that cancer will grow inside of you. You feel that your own body is betraying you. I think it made me feel I couldn't even trust my own body. Then again maybe it's a silly thought. It's just the way I felt at the time.
I do feel good though. A few weeks ago I had a slight wheeze at night when I breathed. I do believe it was a little hay fever and it did go away but I tell you my hubby FREAKS out if I breathe the wrong way. He says nothing. He just looks at me, eyebrows raised, eyes bulging and stares. He says nothing. I look at him and say everyone wheezes SOMETIME. He calmly looks at me and says "Not you. You aren't allowed."
I love that man.
You have a great husband honey. I can just tell. I have one too.
ReplyDeleteHave a terrific day. Big hug. :)
I know how your husband feels! He is scared of every little cough and wheeze. My husband has a recurrent brain tumor, and I notice every little thing that seems the slightest bit off about his health. God bless you both, and sending much love and hope that your follow up is clear.
ReplyDeleteTake care:)
Hello sandy,
ReplyDeleteit's good that it's nothing serious and we all hope that your follow-up will be ok like the last CT scan has been already!
Have a great time with your husband and your kids!
that's a very sweet husband you have. he ahs a very strong love for you.
ReplyDeleteYou are lucky you have a great husband... I am also lucky with my husband...
ReplyDeleteBTW, thanks for leaving a comment on my kitchen...
I really understand the feeling and thinking that your body betrayed you. I have had that feeling... I'm glad that you're feeling well and in a positive spirit.
ReplyDeleteYou are blessed with a loving doctor, and husband. Both can be hard to come by.
ReplyDeleteYou have a sweet husband! I know exactly what you mean about feeling like your body is betraying you...
ReplyDeleteAlthough the fear never goes away, it does lessen. Even though I'm 8 years clear, anything unusual still causes my heart to race! I like the sound of your husband - caring and concerned like mine.
ReplyDeleteyour baby looks cute...its so great of you sharing your experiences about the cancer with all of us
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